my fear just fuels the hate machine.

i walked the road that many have traveled
and i've seen my share of mountebanks
atop their soap boxes
i laughed at the sounds they made
but one day while walking
another path caught my eye
i guess not the path, but the cat on the path
whose brown eyes did sparkle, although she was shy
i don't know why

but the greenest of trees will shine at my funeral
and all my best friends will toast with red wine
but then only you will carry my coffin
and put orange leaves on my grave every night
and all my best friends won't cry at my funeral
because funerals should be a celebration of life
i don't know why

so i followed this cat
into a wooded glen
and here i saw beauty unknown to my eyes
such bright, fertile trees! the grass was so green
so different from the roads i had come to recognize
out here were no liars, no dust and no frauds
out here, only beauty bright enough to give pause
so i lay down my pack, i lay down my troubles
and i petted this cat and saw the face of god
i don't know why

but the greenest of trees will shine at my funeral
and all my best friends will toast with red wine
but then only you will carry my coffin
and put orange leaves on my grave every night
and all my best friends won't cry at my funeral
because funerals should be a celebration of life
i don't know why

i have looked for that path again, many a time
each day i go walking with eyes open wide
some days i see it, but most days i don't
but now i relish each sunset and sunrise
i don't know why

but the greenest of trees will shine at my funeral
and all my best friends will toast with red wine
but then only you will carry my coffin
and put orange leaves on my grave every night
and all my best friends won't cry at my funeral
because funerals should be a celebration of life
now i know why

-yours truly

got back from the beach on wednesday, it was nifty shifty girlfriendtastic. heather got to come with mi familia and myself to hang for a week. at the beach. the sky was amazing at night, i've missed seeing so many stars.
i start at GTCC next week, so my summer of uneventfulness is coming to a woefully short end. but Chels is coming up next Saturday/Sunday so that should be awesome.
Heather is going to maryland tomorrow morning, i miss her already. it seems selfish in a way, i spend most of my days with her, and it feels weird not being able to see her for a week. we're also going to different schools since i got accepted to this new one, i'm going to miss those Grimsley kids, but not as much as i am excited for the self-betterment this place offers.
i want to have one last blowout before i start school, so i'ma see if david or henry has anything amazing to share with me sometime before next wednesday. probably monday night.
on a similar note, i quit drinking.

so what's going on with you kids, the ones who actually check up on this thing?

I hear these times are the end. And another one must fall down.
I don't think I believe it. When another one must fall down.
Give us the distance. And another one will fall down.

The sun in the open sky. Fall down.
Stare back into my own eyes. Fall down.
A stranger in my own skin. Fall down.

One decade later. And another one must fall down.
The earth isn't humming. I watched them all fall down.
Fell into the sound in front of me. Unchanged by those around.
Directionless. An open sea. We'll watch as time tumbles down.

chewed my ass up and spit me out. this is the batman movie i've been waiting for all these years, and i know it's been said a thousand times, but Heath Ledger is probably the best Joker i've ever seen. i hate like hell that he had to die to give that amazing performance. go see it, honor Heath's memory and have fun watching him drive people to madness and blow shit up for the absolute best reason- he enjoys it. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAH

WHY SO SERIOUS?

the show was awesome, although Cookie wasn't performing and it saddened me.
but Astrid Haven was everything i could've hoped for, and Wednesday rocked it hard.
Wednesday even played a couple of Murderdolls songs and one Frankenstein Drag Queens one, 197666, I Love To Say Fuck, and R.A.M.B.O. to be exact. good times, good times.

Well I broke my nail on your coffin lid
Trying to get to the beauty within
Oh yeah, you're gonna be mine

Digging a grave while wearing a skirt
Asking for trouble, gonna get myself hurt
But its fine, you're gonna be mine

Let me wipe those maggots from your eyes
You make me feel all warm and fuzzy inside
Now my wigs all frizzy
And I've got a run in my hose
Rigor mortis has been kind to you
And left you in a sexy pose

Happily, I'm so happily ever cadaver
You're gonna be mine

This transvestite moves by moonlight
With six inch heels and a pink flashlight
Oh yeah, you're gonna be mine

I put you in the back of my Cadillac
Next to my lingerie and tire jack
Oh yeah, you're gonna be mine

and telling me it wants 17 year old boys.
doesn't that sound like mild pedophilia to you?

whatever, i guess. it just creeps me out the slightest little bit.